Through all the ups and downs of any relationship, I should never lose track of the fact that my guy is one of the better ones. I may complain now and again of the work he puts in for others but that community minded trait means that he also supports me (exactly as a friend commented on a previous post).
This weekend has been particularly sucky. Curl up in a ball in a dark corner kind of sucky. But he has been there for me, above and beyond what I have ever previously experienced in relationship support. He has my back and letting myself believe that is the biggest letting go of past issues I have ever managed. There is a degree of relief in believing in that support that feels like exhaling from the longest holding of breath ever.