Never mind

Maybe because such a lot of money, and it feels so reckless.
 
And reckless hasn’t exactly been good for me in the past,
 
I am calmer now.
 
I hate having to analyse my behaviour; having to be so watchful all the time. I know me better than anybody else and I am the guardian of regulation of my life, and selfmonitoring is a tedious task when you are the sole watchkeeper.
 
I have deliberately kept at arm’s length those that love me, those that would love me a lot less if they were set up to be the wardens of my aberrant behaviour, or even if just situationally exposed.
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About quirkycharm

I like to think that I have a certain quirky charm but I am probably being optimistic. Acquired taste, perhaps, which many don't acquire. This is about my fifth blog out there. My hosting companies kept going out of business or my IT exhusband kept hacking into them and I would move again. I don't do twitter, I barely do facebook, I don't try and 'monetize' my blog. I love my husband, my grown children and my job and this particular incarnation of oversharing my life comes at a time when I am the most content that I have ever been. I write always, sporadically during the good stuff and exhaustingly during the bad.
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