She looked so beautiful and I was so proud of her; especially as she won three academic excellence awards, totally unexpectedly from my perspective. I went with the exhusband, the eldest daughter and the exhusband’s parents were there, too. Unfortunately, it was a lonely night for me. The others were all chatty amongst themselves and I was sitting on the end of the group, next to my daughter, who had a big dislike on for me that night. I irritate and annoy her a lot, and she shows it. It was sad.
I’d arranged that my exhusband and our two daughters go out to dinner afterwards: I honestly thought it would be fun and we could share family achievements. It didn’t work that way and my ex and my oldest proceeded to be really snide and picky towards me. I don’t mind so much when things are directed at me but I hate it when it is directed towards people I care about, who aren’t even there.
It was an evening that I felt excluded from and I wished that I had gone by myself. I still feel upset today and I am annoyed that it makes me feel like that, when it should have been all about my shining star of a daughter, truly beautiful inside and out.