I do have another job. I’ll be starting at the end of the month and I think it will work out quite well. I’ll be doing extended touring and probably paired up with another woman; her working as Tour Leader, me as driver.
I do have some reservations about this, though. I’ve never worked extended with another female before and I don’t know how the dynamic will work: team harmony is very important. I also worry that I will be constantly thinking that I could organise the tour so much better than her.
(As an aside, I’ve asked a couple of doctor friends whether looking at vaginas for a living was offputting – bear with me here; I promise I am going somewhere with this – when it came to …um….using them for recreational purposes. One said ‘yes’, which surprised me. The other said ‘no, why would it?’ and then added, ‘it’s like you going on tours; it’s different and you don’t judge.’)
Except I don’t take tours because I do judge. I am the worst person in the world for thinking that I could have done it so much better. I wish to point out, however, that I do recognise excellence where I see it and acknowledge it as such. I also am very, very forgiving in training situations and I am a great tour trainer.
So I will be doing a couple of tours as a third wheel soon and then get into the nitty gritty of it all. I am sure I will really enjoy it once I start but part of me is still mourning for that lost job, where I would have been both driver and tour leader, in the best country in the world, based out of my favourite town.
I hope I hurry up and get the fuck over it.