I might have been a little distraught last week…

There was a struggle with acceptance going on. I was frantically reaching out for support as I felt myself going under and I called a lot of people. I believe I mentioned that there aren’t any support groups for people exactly in my sort of circumstances – you know that your family person is going to die much sooner than they should but you just don’t know when.  Limbo is horrible and I personally deal much better with facing concrete facts, no matter how awful.

I am seeing a counsellor and I think he is helping, even if only by validating my grief. It’s been a shitty last two years and my mental resources are very depleted.

 

All that down the phone sobbing apparently paid off somewhere, though. I’ve just received a full envelope stuffed with useful numbers, a membership card and offers of ongoing support as well as discounted  things in everyday life. Me being me, my immediate reaction is to feel undeserving and guilty because I am coping so much better now but I have to say that the service is top notch. My state government is definitely caring for the carers!

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About quirkycharm

I like to think that I have a certain quirky charm but I am probably being optimistic. Acquired taste, perhaps, which many don't acquire. This is about my fifth blog out there. My hosting companies kept going out of business or my IT exhusband kept hacking into them and I would move again. I don't do twitter, I barely do facebook, I don't try and 'monetize' my blog. I love my husband, my grown children and my job and this particular incarnation of oversharing my life comes at a time when I am the most content that I have ever been. I write always, sporadically during the good stuff and exhaustingly during the bad.
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