Monthly Archives: December 2016

Protected: It is a hard time at the moment

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I said I didn’t remember much about yesterday

The term is disassociation, according to my counsellor. My mind doesn’t want to retain the memories because it would be too traumatic to do so: it blanks them out in the short term as a coping mechanism but they are … Continue reading

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We buried my brother yesterday

The same church he was married in, nearly 25 years ago. I don’t remember much of anything from the entire day. There was a High Church service, complete with ‘bells and smells’, as┬ámy brother had planned. A choir and eulogies … Continue reading

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We’re done.

Now excuse me for a while, whilst I crawl off into a corner and hide a bit from the world. I feel very … soft-shelled at the moment. I’m finished with one particular thread of my life and I haven’t … Continue reading

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No hospital tonight

I’m at home sick. I felt yuckky yesterday but chalked it up to being so exhausted from these horrible days. Getting up at 4 to take my husband to the airport was hard and I went back to bed afterwards, … Continue reading

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nope

There have been a few discussions lately about my brother and this final stage of illness. Somebody family is at the hospital with him always and we provide pretty much all the care, aided by nursing staff as required. We … Continue reading

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This has been such a long week

Is it really only Tuesday?   I feel utterly exhausted.

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